When blog reader Leslie Lockwood told me she was scheduled for a hysterectomy, I asked her to record her experience for Friend for the Ride. She’s presenting her story in three parts. This post recounts the symptoms and medical advice that led to the surgery. Thanks, Leslie!
As I look ahead to a few days from now, I’m really not sure how I feel. You see, I am about to part with my uterus. I guess I’m ok with that. No more bleeding or spotting 15 days a month…. No more pain (endometriosis)…
Until recently I thought I would never have a hysterectomy. They were for people of my mom’s generation, or people with health issues. Not me, I was pretty sure I’d be hanging on to it forever. But here I am today, about to have surgery soon, and I am pretty sure that I am in denial about this whole experience.
Here what lead me to make the decision: Until the last few years, I was a pretty healthy person, with rarely even a cramp each month. Then one day I had this pain that I thought surely must be appendicitis; it turned out to be a ruptured ovarian cyst (talk to anyone who has had one, the most excruciating pain ever). I had it happen twice before the doctor scheduled a laparoscopic procedure and took out my ovary.
When they took my ovary, they discovered that I had lots and lots of endometriosis. Interestingly, right before I had my ovary removed, I had this pain in my side and shooting down my leg– this has continued every month for 1-2 weeks. I often have bleeding or spotting accompanying this. But I did not want a hysterectomy, so I decided to try and deal with it.
When it wasn’t getting any better ,they put me on The Pill. I continued to have bad pain and yet another ruptured ovarian cyst (on my remaining ovary). I have figured out that constant pain is exhausting! I was tired all. the. time. (Me, the diagnosed insomniac since age 10, has to take a nap each and every day.) So after my last trip to the ER for the ruptured cyst, I went to my doctor. He basically said to me, “It’s time.”
Now that the time has come, I have tons of questions: *Will they take my ovary? *Will they put me on estrogen? What will I feel like? *What will the recovery be like? Is this really going to happen? So much is unanswered at this point.
And still, I wonder if this is really what I should do? I have actually felt ok in the last month and a half since that cyst ruptured. So now what do I do? Do I discount the 2.5 years of pain, bleeding, etc. because the last month has been ok? Or is it sort of like when you can’t stand your hair, schedule an appointment, and then get tons of compliments (before you even have your hair cut)?
I’m not sure. Time will tell.
I am hoping and praying that I made the right decision.
*This part really is an uncertainty because the doctor will not know what he has to do until he get in there with the scope and sees how much damage the endometriosis has done.
Photo Above: Leslie as a baby!
Photo below: Our guest blogger now.