I am so pleased to have an opportunity to visit with my Pausin’ Sisters here. Thank you so much for the invitation, Barb!
Over at my blog www.RemarkableWrinklies.com I explore a lot of areas of aging and living well during the “passage” years. And what I’ve learned is, as I was thrust into peri-menopause, my life seemed to come full circle…
I was once again in puberty.
I was sleeping all day. I wasn’t sleeping at all. I was getting zits. I was crying. I was giddy. I was angry. I was touchy. I was anxious. Everybody hates me, nobody likes me, think I’ll eat some worms.
I was a teenager again for God’s sake!
For me, I was experiencing a return to many of the “joys” of puberty. Periods I couldn’t count on. Moods I couldn’t count on. Sore boobs. Skin that betrayed me.
There I was 50 years old, looking at myself in the mirror and seeing the 14 year old me looking back, all petulant. And yes, I was ticked off because I was going on vacation and there was a big zit on my nose! Really? Here I was 50 years old putting zit cream on my face! Slamming doors. Stomping feet. Pouting. It was all back.
But, because I knew I WASN’T in puberty, I knew I had to be instead;
a) going mad,
b) having a heart attack,
c) getting mean,
d) on fire, and
e) seeing skin cancer.
It was a bit scary at times. But, once I learned I was back in puberty with all the familiar hormonal ups and downs, I started to relax a little. I had come full circle, much to my chagrin. The feeling of; “Wasn’t I here before?” was disturbing at times, but I got through it.
So, would you like to know how it ends?
Now that I have ‘crossed over’ to menopause, I can look back with a certain amount of clarity via the gift of hindsight. Those dozen or so years of peri-menopause may feel like a blip on my life’s radar screen, but I learned something. When I first entered my “puberty re-enactment” or peri-menopause, I didn’t know what to expect. Like Barb said in her post, Not Your Cookie Cutter Menopause, the menopause years are not punched out cookie-cutter style.
Even if hundreds of women chose my biscuit cutter to ‘cut out’ how their peri-menopause looks (coming full-circle back to puberty), there would be so many differences. Menopause is definitely not cookie-cutter style, just like puberty is not cookie-cutter style, either. The lists of symptoms and complaints are endless, and endlessly confusing. None of us can be sure how our journey will go. As my Mom said; “Aging is not for the timid.” And, in the arms of our friends, we’ll find the strength to stay bold and strong, and just get through the whole thing… maybe even with a few laughs.
Thank you again, Barb, for inviting me to share my thoughts. I sure enjoy coming here and reading what you and your community of friends have to say. I’m sure I’ll see you around again soon!
Patti Winker believes that “women of a certain age” need to share their stories in order to stay connected and live well. At www.RemarkableWrinklies.com, she writes about aging and health, but also likes to wax nostalgic once in a while and have a few laughs along the way. It’s all a part of this great time in our lives. When Patti’s not riding her bike, she’s in her kitchen, or traveling with her husband, or playing with her family, the grandkids, the cats, and the dogs.